Take a number and wait until you're called.
Published on May 29, 2007 By dynamaso In Poetry

The evidence was damning
There was nothing I could say
To deny the existence
Of the terrible deceit I’d hidden

I tucked it in the pages
Of some forgotten book on a shelf
In the library of my mind
I wanted to leave it all behind

I wanted to get on with what I’d started
But the ‘f’ fell out and revealed
The lie supporting everything
I’d so carefully concealed

Until, like all buildings
Built on weak foundations
Very soon cracks appeared
In the walls around our relationship

The rosy future I had tried to paint
Started peeling away
Revealing everything I never said
In glorious technicoloured embarrassment

I wanted you to believe everything I said
I wanted you to think of me only
Now all I am is a bitter aftertaste
You treat with indifference

Comments
on May 29, 2007
Very sad.
on May 29, 2007
D-

I know this comes from a very painful place. Well written, though I'm sorry you had to go through this to get this fine writing.

It reminds me of something I wrote called "Self-Help Book".

Thanks for sharing, and I hope the fallout of this time is long past,
Your mate, Moskowitz
on May 29, 2007
Ouch! I feel the pain between the words. A place once visited, many moons ago I hope!

Well-written maso!
on May 29, 2007
Doc,

Very sad


Yes, it is.

Buddah,

You're right, this came from a particularly painful place, somewhere very few of us actually enjoy being. I appreciate you feeling sorry for me but like all experiences, I gained something from them, creatively speaking. To me, this is the payoff.

I'm glad you like the poem, mate. Good to see you.

Serenity,

Good to see you too, Donna. Yes, it wasn't a nice place either. I'm glad you liked it too.
on May 29, 2007
I'm on the other side of that poem... and now i think i know how he felt. thank you for this.
on May 30, 2007
Ennarath,

i think i know how he felt


If by emotionally bludgeoned, then you're close. While I try to live my life without regrets, there are (very few) times I'd love to lose all memory of ever having happened.

thank you for this


You're welcome.
on May 30, 2007
yes, i think we both came away emotionally bludgeoned. i did write a response to your response by the way. there are MANY surprises left in the end of WHITE LIFE
on Jun 01, 2007
Life has a tendency to bludgeon those of us who choose to live guided by our emotions. It doesn't ever matter how hard we appear to be outside, we're all soft in the centre.