Here is this little narrative, trying to push beyond the here and now, whatever the heck they are. My here and now, sitting in front of this keyboard, typing this very sentence is so utterly different to the here and now you might be in while reading this, neither of us could begin to understand the differences. To be honest, I sometimes wonder why we bother. Yet I want to be able to step beyond these places, even step between them. Maybe this is where peace lies. Maybe writing this will allow me to see these places, where the defenceless live in safety, the hungry never starve, bullets and batons don’t exist and the sheer brute force running through humankind has ceased to be.

The weight of being, the faith and doubt we allow to dwell in us at the same time and the conflict of simply being alive can be a heavy burden for some of us. I’ve been carrying it around for a while now and, like any of you, have some knowledge of what I‘m talking about. It weighs about the same as a heart and a brain. The same as the heart beating in your chest right now. The same as the brain digesting these words, trying to make sense out of my concepts, my thoughts. It is all about logic and emotion, or, in other words, spirit (if indeed it lies in the heart) and science. Its all about two schools of thought, trying to dominate each other.

It never gets easier, as far as I’m concerned. For some it does get to be comfortable. Comfortable is good but it is never good to get too comfortable. If the burden moves, it is good to be ready to move with it. It is not so much a case of staying ahead or trying to be predictive. It is all about being mindful and not staggering or falling or dropping anything when the load does shift. And shift it will. Many times, in fact, if you consider yourself a thinking person.

I know there are those of us who think they have at least some of the weight lifted. Maybe they do but whose to say? Again, it is all about the individual concept of reality. The only time these ever merge is when we meet, when we have direct dialogue. This is when either of us can affect and effect the other’s reality. It might be positive, it might not. There is no telling what might happen. I like to think optimistically so I would hope any meeting with another’s reality only proves to be positive for both parties.

I want to test it as much as I can. I want to move beyond mere words across the ether and half the world to where I am sitting across a table from you, looking you in the eyes and sharing time with you. It won’t be my time. It won’t be your time. Then, and only then, it will be our time. And believe me, I’m looking forward to it.